I’m so sorry, that sounds awful. I did get lucky in the sense that I had one good enough parent, which is honestly probably while I’m still alive and doing alright. I still talk to my Mom on a weekly basis. She had a lot of unwinding to do after her divorce. It’s tricky to get an abusive narcissist out of your head. They have a way of living there.

I hope you’re doing better! Your perseverance is admirable as hell.

Sometimes getting through adversity and hardship can make us into better, tougher, and more empathetic adults than we would’ve been if our childhoods had been easier. I hope that’s the case for you.

If you want something durable it’s best to go with two piece poles rather than three pieces. When poles bend or break it’s always on the bottom piece because it’s the thinnest.

Unfortunately two piece poles can be hard to find. I’ve been considering getting some MSR poles because it’s a reputable brand and they have a two piece option. I just wish they offered a model with cork handles because I’ve gotten used to cork and will miss it.

https://cascadedesigns.com/products/dynalock-trail-backcountry-poles

These are intended for snowshoeing, which makes sense considering the only time I’ve bent a pole it was while snowshoeing. But of course they can be used anywhere and come with regular mud baskets. If you’re looking for maximum durability, these are a good option.

Any good memories of my Dad are overwritten by the child abuse. I would’ve been better off being raised by a single mother. Today is… complicated.

Pro tip: if you like avoiding people, work weekends. It’s lovely. You get to run all errands on weekdays when they have minimal foot traffic and hiking trails are all yours. Camping permits are also easy to get.

There’s a heat wave this weekend near Seattle where I live. Saturday and Sunday have highs around 88 and Monday is like 85. June has a reputation here for being cold and rainy. There’s not a single drop of rain in the forecast this upcoming week or the one after.

If this summer is anything like the last two, we won’t get a single drop until October.

I can handle a lot of things. Even the fall of democracy in the USA. Because those horrible things are tangible and solvable. We can always have a revolution. That will suck, but it’s doable.

Climate change has me in a funk that just won’t quit. Nothing makes me want to give up more than this. This awful hot summer will be the coolest summer for the rest of my life. I can’t deal with something this hopeless.

I love them. They tend to be more practical than toe socks, which can cause some issues because people tend to have drastically different toe lengths.

Tabi socks with Bedrock sandals is the happiest my feet have ever been.

The Japanese have been wearing tabi socks for hundreds of years. It’s infuriating that it hasn’t caught on here especially considering the advantages that sandals bring in a world that will continue to get hotter for the rest of our lives.

This is something that needs to be taught in public education. Capitalism has a way of destroying our self esteem and the cycle needs to be broken. It’s so frustrating that I can understand this but need to be constantly reminded of this by a frog.

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It’s called negativity bias. It’s an evolved trait passed down from our ancestors. Only the people with anxiety who devoted a lot of conscious thought to unpleasant possibilities lived long enough to reproduce, passing on those tendencies.

I’m not sure if ADHD has anything to do with it, but it’s possible that there’s even more focus on negativity as a result.

It’s refreshing that this article used the phrase “half a million” instead of the way the American protests have been framed as “tens of thousands” when they know damn well that it was millions.

I hope we get more Palestine focused protests!

I’ve done some reading about CPTSD and it’s… surreal to read about something that so perfectly explains my situation. Autism itself isn’t a disability, but rather it’s CPTSD that does the disabling.

I’ll have to check out those videos. I appreciate the suggestion.

While Cyberpunk is indeed not a happy game I still greatly appreciate the maturity, the heavy themes, and the critiques of American society and capitalism. Even the romances are mature and well written.

Luckily I haven’t had to explain it to anyone yet, as I am a security guard and spend the majority of my time at work alone. Security can be a great job for people on the spectrum. It’s important to note that unarmed security is the chill kind where you rarely have to actually deal with people.

I don’t have any interest in being an armed guard. That shit sounds stressful.

I have a lifetime of unprocessed trauma leaking into my every day life. I was put on antidepressants when I was 12 and weened myself off of them when I was 31. Taking the lid off Pandora’s box has overall improved my life but every once in a while something will trigger repressed emotions and I’ll have a period of a few days to a few weeks where I can’t stop crying. It’s pure, unfiltered grief. And it comes in waves.

This time it was Cyberpunk 2077. I had heard that this game was emotional, so I was prepared for the effect it was always going to have on me. Or at least I thought I was prepared. A particular storyline put a large hole in the dam holding everything back. I do appreciate it when a piece of media can punch a hole in my dam, as it needs to happen, but I sure am fucked up right now.

Crying in public and at work isn’t fun.

I was like this. I was diagnosed at 28 years old, and now I’m 39. The last remnants of my extroverted tendencies are dying, though. I recently had two friends ghost me because of trauma influenced behavior that I was experiencing. People pretend they’re tolerant of autism riiiiiiiight up until something genuinely difficult happens. Then you get to see how your “friendship” was based on a masked version of you and therefore completely fake.

Someone I thought I had a 20 year “friendship” with ghosted me with zero explanation after I moved 1600 miles across the country to live closer to. My extraverted tendencies cause more harm than the loneliness that comes with introversion. It’s just not worth it.

Bad enough that I cannot handle music with lyrics, with a few exceptions. Genres like post-rock are all I listen to.

I am soooooooo disappointed in the hundreds of people upvoting AI slop. Stop it.

Sounds like a good law. The comments on the article are absolutely unhinged.

It’s funny that you mentioned this, because the crappy website is one of the things that sold me on it. It reminds me of the old internet.

It’s also surprisingly affordable, I got a 3 year subscription for something like $60. I was during a sale.

AirVPN (Eddie) has port forwarding. The interface isn’t very appealing and their website is meh, but it works and I got a great deal on a 3 year subscription.